It’s been a month since my last post before I am aware of it… Horrible!
It always seems that we don’t have enough time to do what we want and this becomes much more obvious as we grow older. I am not sure if it’s because we want more as our age increases or because more things are competing for our time and energy. Right after graduation, I felt like I had tons of free time to do whatever I want. Back then, I only needed to care about my work and after the normal working hour, I was free, totally free to do whatever I liked, travelling, reading, writing, fitness, etc. I felt I could become professional in whatever I liked if I wanted to because endless time and energy supported me to do so. But year after year, I haven’t become professional in any of these fields I was and even am interested in, reading, writing, fitness, photography…None.
I don’t know if I have put all my free time and energy into one thing, no matter it’s reading, writing, fitness, or photography, etc. would I become professional in that field? Like if I spent all my time writing, can I be a write now? I don’t know. Maybe not if we consider where I am in my work (being in this IT field for like more than eight years, I don’t know if I can be called professional… Maybe just familiar with some systems and platforms and having some experience in certain IT projects and management). Maybe I can just write some good articles if I am lucky, but far from a writer. Then what’s the reason to regret or to go too far with the IF?
There is a poem or essay about The Road Not Taken. It seems what we have not done is much more attractive to us than what we have already done and this tortures many people quite a lot. But there is no IF in our lives. What happened happened and we can not change it. Then why not just enjoy what we have chosen to do and what we are doing now?